Saturday, September 12, 2009

letter to trinity: 50 months

Dear Trinity,

As I write this, it is the weekend prior to you starting school and I find that is predominating over anything else I might have to say about you this month.

We opted to send you to school for 5 days out of every ten, (3 days one week, 2 the next) for full days. The school you were set up to go to originally had offered this to kids going to Junior Kindergarten and then changed it to 5 days a week, full days just last week. Needless to say, your Mom and I were less than impressed. We decided to stick with our original plan. You have been with your 'staying at home' Mom for all of your 4 years of life so far, and we aren't interested in sending you to daycare every day now, just because its in a school.

Your Mom is probably going to take this the hardest. She's devoted basically the last four years of her life to being with you, because that is what we had always wanted (and still maintain). But I think she might have grown more than a little accustomed to getting you all to herself all this time. But she'll adjust, and I know already that she looks back on this time with you as the best, most fulfilling period of her life.

For my end, I find myself far more concerned with your safety, while at school and getting to and from, that anything else. The idea of my little four year old baby girl riding a bus without us there to keep an eye on things makes me more than a little queasy. But I know that once you've started to go and its become routine things will settle down. Truth is, I can't wait to talk to you about all the new things you're learning, and either add my own take, or help you to find out more. I am interested also in hearing how others react to how intelligent you are.

You however are nothing but excited about the whole thing, although your enthusiasm for riding the bus seems to be dwindling the closer we get to the big day. The idea of school, and playing and interacting with other kids is a delight for you. And the one half day that you have spent already with your teacher last week was enough to convince you that you're going to like it.

I look forward to telling you all about it.

You have managed to do a few fun things this past month besides getting ready for school. Your Grandpa and Grandma came to visit (both my Mom, and Dad, obviously on separate visits). You had a lot of fun with both of them, but you are particularly fond of my Dad, and he of you.

We also took you to your (and my) first fall Farmer's Fair. There were horse pulls, pony rides, and a lot more cowboy hats than one might expect for Northern Ontario. But they also had a great big bouncy ride, and a tiny train on a circular track. You loved those quite a bit. I hope to get to take you to it again next year.

I love you,